Thankyou
I would like to say thankyou for your support again, it has really helped since losing my nana. My mum and I have sorted ourselves out financially so I can take a few weeks off to get myself together again, which is good, but....I still find myself lost in life and it feels like time has remainded to stand still! is this normal to feel this way, I know I can't rush the grieving process and its only been 11 days since my nana's funeral but I feel left behind with not many people to talk too. Are there any group for carers whom look after Alzheimers sufferers dealing with grief?
Life does feel weird not having her around, and it does feel empty! but we've had quite a few weird things going on at home. I'm more of a spiritual person than religious and I've always sensed people around me. There have been days when I've been really upset and we've smelled my nana's perfume or items of her's have fallen onto the floor (even the sound of her cot sides on her hospital bed clanging, only her bed isn't here anymore). I know people might think were crazy and we want to hear things and presume they are her, but I'm sure its my nana trying to comfort us, so its helping to ease the pain knowing she's not far away.
I still go to the crem every other day because it gives me something to do, and I need it at the moment, its all happened so quickly but its my way of grieving, and I know I have to get out of it sooner or later.
I just want you to know that I'm getting there and I think my nana is helping me through along with your help. Its nice to know you guys are out there!
My sincerest condolences to the others who's relatives' has recently departed, look after yourselves!
Big hugs to all of you,
Louise xx