Morning,
and thanks for the vibes and hugs.
I do feel better this morning. I think yesterday was a long day, what with the oncologist, and then the GP, and then this news about Mum,
right at the end of the day, when I couldn't do anything about it except panic.
Annie, thanks, been thinking about vertigo, it's funny you should say that, and yes, Mum does suffer the symptoms you describe, and has done for years. When we took her out for walks in her wheelchair or for a drive she would always feel nauseous. I know it's distressing and that's partly what upset me last night.
Lynne, thanks for your post; I agree with your comments about carers; I
don't expect them to be medics at all, that is why I wrote a sheet of simple medical stuff about MS, it had about three key things on the sheet and the top one was
"Please move me slowly as I get very dizzy and feel sick very easily. If you take me for a bath, the slower you go, the happier I will be." That is why I feel it is reasonable to be upset when they ask me if she suffers vertigo - it is something I was careful to warn them of!
But, Annie, last time Mum was sick earlier this week, she said to me, "It was weird. I never felt sick at all and I didn't feel ill, all of a sudden it just came from nowhere!" and she was surprised. Now
that doesn't sound like vertigo, does it?
It could be a bug. But it could be the MS deteriorating (digestion is a problem in late stage) and it could be vertigo. But it would be lovely if the home rang me - they all know what's wrong with me and they know I am bothered about not visiting.
The kind lady who looks in on Mum for me sees her every day and e mails me an update which is so lovely of her that she has really made it possible for me to live with the not visiting.
Sorry I was a bit down last night, I think emotionally I just came to the end of my tether last night. I know Mum isn't going to last forever, I just would like to be feeling fit enough to look after her when her time comes.
Today Hubby says he will take me after I have had my swine flu jab (which I have to have before chemo starts) - I'll be careful. I will phone Mum's doctor at 9 and see if I can have a phone appointment to talk it through with him.
xx