Hi I wrote about three years ago saying my Mum was in hospital full time....She died three years ago and after a major family fall out the week before. Tensions ran high and my father and brother took it out on me, my hubby went crazy at them for this and it turned very nasty. I wasn't there when she died, nor was I given a say in the funeral or even when the funeral was I had to find that out myself. She was cremated when she wanted buried beside her parents, I asked my sister for her ashes so that I could bury them with her parents my brother got there before me and claimed them. I could go on but I won't its in the past now. I feel empty inside now, I've know where to go no grave nothing, its like she wasn't on this earth, Bro and Dad wanted it this way so they wouldn't have a grave to tend. Hubby and I are going threw some difficult times now and I'm wondering if this has any bearing. I know she's dead but what I don't know if I have except that. My sister won't talk about it, she told me life moves on that was the end of that. I lost more than a Mum, but then I was always a Mummies girl. I haven't spoken to or seen my Dad and bro since the funeral. My sister tells me that my Dad is fading and to be honest I don't care, I don't even want to go to his funeral. To find a scrap of peace in all this would be nice to say the least. There are other really hurtful things they did which only add to this.
Anyway sorry for being a big softy. Maybe I need to grow a pair...lol
Feral
Anyway sorry for being a big softy. Maybe I need to grow a pair...lol
Feral