Esmeralda, life is complicated and is never what we expect once dementia comes into the picture. I think all we can ever do is to cope with life as it is right now. It is unhelpful to keep looking back at the past, it is gone and cannot be revisited. I know from Ray's journey that one day he would be fine and the next day have another stroke and more deficits that would have to be worked through again. It is nine years now since he died. As a widow I find there are a lot of uncertainties in my life but I seem to use those old skills to overcome them. Stay safe, keep well.