Esmeralda I lost my husband Ray eight years ago. I still remember the turmoil of living with someone with so many conflicting needs but my life as a widow has different highs and lows. I keep this thread going because I still keep in touch with friends I made on here as a Carer. Perhaps you will be in my position one day but in the meantime I do understand the frustrations that a Carers life involved. Hope things get better for you soon.