My Father in Law developed dementia in his late 50's back in the mid 70's, my Husband and I supported my Mother in Law while she cared for him at home. Eventually he could no longer speak or walk, he was a tall 6 ft man she was under 5ft so it was difficult for her to physically handle him, but my Husband would go round at all times of the day and night to assist with the incidents and falls that occurred. He went into a home for 2 weeks respite care and the day he was due to come home, when the Carer turned to put his breakfast tray on the trolley, she hadn't put the sides of the bed up and he stood up and fell breaking his hip. After a spell in hospital they said it was impossible for her to cope with him at home any longer as it had taken 3 trained people to handle him, so he spent the last 3 years in a home, dying as a result of a virus which went around the home that winter. That was 1993.
By the late 90's my Mother in Law developed Dementia, we looked after her at home for as long as we could with the support of Carers, but she go that she didn't know where she was and would ring every few minutes for us to "Go and Find her". We needed a break following our two Sons Weddings, which took place within a few months of one another. We were both working full time and looking after Mother in Law and the weddings involved seven members of the Family visiting from America, so there was a lot going on. We asked her to go into a home for a couple of weeks while we had a holiday which she agreed to. We were only away 3 nights but stayed away from the home to let her settle, she never really did because she spent her time wanting to "go back home" but that wasn't the home she had lived in for 60 years, I think it was her childhood home. She was there just over 3 years when she passed away in 2006.
Before her passing we had to clear out and sell her home to pay the fees, several things happened at that time which confirmed to me what I was already suspecting, that my Husband, who at that time was about 60, was showing the same signs as his Father. He wouldn't accept this and refused to go to the Doctor. I finally got him there in 2015 and he was diagnosed with the combined Alzheimer's/Vascular dementia moderate/severe. I have carried on trying to get the best out of life for both of us but the last 12 months he has required 24 hour care as he can't find the bathroom and doesn't know what to do when he gets there, so I can't sleep for more that a couple of hours at a time. I can't find his way around the house so I have to keep checking on him to make sure he drinks and that he isn't relieving himself somewhere he shouldn't, he wears protective pants but isn't incontinent as such, he just doesn't know where to go or where to come to find me to help him (only in the kitchen) He can't speak, doesn't understand what I say, he can't walk far in fact some days he can't stand without holding on to something. He just wants to stay in bed and sleep all the time and fights me off when I am trying to help him in the toilet or get him to go into the shower. On top of these problems, this week he has started having difficulty in using a knife and fork, he gets worse by the week. I have found difficulty getting support, from the Doctor or the various organisations, so have coped so far on my own. Before the lockdown my Sister would have him for me for an hour while I went to a Pilates class, which I attended on the advice of a physio after treatment for a back problem but that was it. Folks complaining that on lockdown they have only been able to exercise once a day and shop once a week. I have been living in isolation all the winter, before the lockdown started, if we have tried a walk 6/8 times during lockdown that is as much as we have done. I have gone on a couple of rides in the car to get a change of scene and make sure the car keeps going.
I hate the thought of being on my own, we have known each other for 60 years, married for over 50 years but I fear if he goes into respite for a while he will be even worse when he comes out or that he won't come out at all and I will be left on my own wondering how I am going to manage financially as I know I will have to pay but at the amount they charge what we have won't last long. Sorry this is a bit lengthy it's my life for the last 48 years and at 75 I now fear I have no future and no one to share it with.