Hello there. I now live with and am full time Carer to my elderly Mother (88). I moved in with her when she was first diagnosed as having Alzheimers and have now been here almost 5 years - without a break. She is now at the stage where she is not safe to be left alone in the house. She is a very private lady - a one off really; she has no friends just one sister of 84 who is deaf. She point blankly refuses to have any help as suggested by both her psychiatrist and her GP. This means that I'm unable to either as she won't have anyone she doesn't know in the house. As you can imagine I am mentally - physically and emotionally exhausted. My life has been on hold for these past five years and If I don't see a solution - or don't have a break I feel as though it's me thats going to go before her. I've contacted Social Services who have offered me the help that is available i.e. respite care but Mother has threatened to do all kinds of things if I have anyone here and just becomes angry and violent when I mention it. I'm constantly verbally abused. I'm called a "You lieing bitch' (totally out of character) every day and told to 'get out of her sight'(because she doesn't remember something that happened recently - she accuses me of making it up !). She has had her hands around my throat; I've had things thrown at me and if looks could kill - I'd be dead. I feel worthless; have lost all confidence and self esteem. I realise that there will come a time when she won't know who I am - then perhaps is the time to seek help. What a dreadful disease it is to see one's own parent's personaily change ansd become almost childlike. Can any of you Carers relate to this - and do you have any suggestions ? Apart from 'hang on in there - as you only have 1 Mum' !?