Hi everyone
Sorry i have not been in touch for a while, just feeling ................................... don't really know how i'm feeling, except very exhausted.
My last thread was about "The Pathway" which the doctors want to put Ray on, but i always believed that he had fought so hard that i could not take his fight away from him and i know him well enough to know that he would let go when he was ready, however, i received a phone call at 11am yesterday from the doctors at the hospital to say that Ray had deteriorated quite rapidly and i should get there as quick as i could.
Needless to say, i weaved through city centre traffic, i'm still not sure how i got there, but i did.
He could not breathe and was very distressed.
The consultant came to his bedside and asked if he could have a word, he said that his lungs were failing as well as other organs (due to the pneumonia) and that they were going to make him comfortable.
As things stand, they have stopped his food and stopped all antibiotics. I suppose this is the "Pathway"!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have held his hand since 11am yesterday (apart from nipping home for 10 minutes to get some clothes) and all i can do is wait for him to die!
Will he drown from the fluid in his lungs? Will he starve to death? How long will it take? I don't know, all i know is that he won't know much about it! I'm the only one who will know much about it.
Why is this is such i sh***y life.
He is still unconscious but clinging on, i'm just about to go back and spend another night waiting for him to die.
Thanks for listening
From a very sad Alex
Sorry i have not been in touch for a while, just feeling ................................... don't really know how i'm feeling, except very exhausted.
My last thread was about "The Pathway" which the doctors want to put Ray on, but i always believed that he had fought so hard that i could not take his fight away from him and i know him well enough to know that he would let go when he was ready, however, i received a phone call at 11am yesterday from the doctors at the hospital to say that Ray had deteriorated quite rapidly and i should get there as quick as i could.
Needless to say, i weaved through city centre traffic, i'm still not sure how i got there, but i did.
He could not breathe and was very distressed.
The consultant came to his bedside and asked if he could have a word, he said that his lungs were failing as well as other organs (due to the pneumonia) and that they were going to make him comfortable.
As things stand, they have stopped his food and stopped all antibiotics. I suppose this is the "Pathway"!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have held his hand since 11am yesterday (apart from nipping home for 10 minutes to get some clothes) and all i can do is wait for him to die!
Will he drown from the fluid in his lungs? Will he starve to death? How long will it take? I don't know, all i know is that he won't know much about it! I'm the only one who will know much about it.
Why is this is such i sh***y life.
He is still unconscious but clinging on, i'm just about to go back and spend another night waiting for him to die.
Thanks for listening
From a very sad Alex
