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Feelings of intense grief


New member
Apr 20, 2021
Hi there,

My immediate family have all been aware of my mum's cognitive decline for a few years now. I think I was in denial about it. Anyway it got bad enough that she was getting very confused about very large life events. We have eventually got her to accept she needs to go to the GP. In the process of reaching out to her GP and the dementia UK helpline, I've come to accept that she most likely has dementia (both her GP and the dementia UK helpline indicated this). We haven't got an official diagnosis yet but it will come soon enough. The process of all of this has sent me into an intense sphere of grief. I'm crying all the time, I'm scared about what this means for my mum, my dad, all of our lives. And I'm so so sad about losing my mum. Part of me wonders if me posting here is just to express myself to someone. I live alone and in a different city to my parents and I just feel so so sad. I'm based in North East London, if anyone knows of any resources around grief that I could access, or any general advice would be very welcome! Cheers.


Volunteer Moderator
Aug 31, 2003
Welcome to the forum @Lizzles.

I’m so sorry to read about your mum and can understand that you must be feeling this grief. I’m glad you’ve found this forum. Posting here to express yourself is a really good idea. There will always be someone here to listen and support. I wondered if this factsheet on grief would be of help.

This article is about anticipatory grief. It is in relation to cancer but I think it applies in any situation where we are grieving for someone who is still alive -

You’ve made a very positive step by sharing your feelings here. Please keep posting - you are amongst people who understand.


Registered User
May 21, 2018
Hello @Lizzles

These feelings are quite usual when facing a probable diagnosis of dementia in a loved one. As @Izzy says, you have made a positive step posting here. One of the problems we can come across is feeling that nobody else understands but here you will find people that really do because they have been through, or are going through, the same things. Keep posting for advice and support, with anything you are concerned about or just to tell us how you are feeling. There are lots of us out here who can help you along and there is no such thing as a stupid question.

There is a great deal of information about dementia on this site, which can be very useful but remember that not everything you read about will necessarily happen. Dealing with symptoms as they come along is probably the best approach.


Registered User
Apr 21, 2021
Hi @Lizzles

I’m new here too and at the same stage with my mum. I’ve dropped her off and sat in the car to cry which is not me at all so I know a little bit how you feel. I live in NW London but currently am staying in another country with my mum because she is alone in the world since dad died and been isolated for well over a year due to the pandemic. That has been a disaster for her and hastened her loss of independence. I have my own family, an other half and two very newly adult children who are in or about to move out to go to uni, so I feel like I have just jumped from one long-term carer role to another. So I’m feeling sad about the loss of my own imagined future life too.

It’s a reasonable response to be sad! As a lifelong sufferer of depression myself, I have some strategies that help me to care for myself. You are reacting in a reasonable way, but once you feel able I recommend connecting with someone, anyone, even a walk with a friend and no mention of your troubles if you don’t want, can make your mood better. Of course that is what you are trying to do here as well, so give yourself credit for making a constructive step.

And thanks for inspiring me to register on here, I’ve been lurking for a couple of week and I think reading the threads has been very helpful, if sometimes horrifying, so now I will try to join in here myself.


Registered User
Sep 2, 2019
Hi @Lizzles and @AwayWithTheFairies
You've both taken the first positive step of a long journey; joining this forum will become a go-to place to share your grief, ask questions and in time share your experiences to those who will surely follow in your footsteps.

Life rarely deal's out a smooth path, you jog along nicely and wham! Along comes a blow that turns your life upside down.

My mum was diagnosed with Alzheimer's in 2017, with symptoms first noticed four years previously.
Mum moved in with OH and I, that same year after dad died, and what really upset me in the early days was realising our reversal of roles.

My lovely mum, who I've always turned to for advice, now needed me to make decisions for her. I had to finally become a grown up.

These days I feel more of a carer, less a daughter. OH and I have faced each step in her decline and adjusted accordingly, but are now giving 100% care around the clock. Until now, our daughter's have been able to care for their Grandma to give us a break, but her personal care is such that I would not expect or want our girls to do what I do. Our next scarey step is investigating respite care.

That is my story, yours will be different, but once you have reached rock bottom with your emotions, a future for your family that could not have been predicted and is not wanted, there really is only one way to go, and that's up.
Knowledge is power, so ask questions, find out about local resources and support your mum's. They are worth it.