The last couple of days I have been feeling pretty depressed. I very much miss my husband. He is still here with me but is not the same caring, loving person he was. I am losing the man I relied on and feel I have gained a child in his place. I will always love and care for him as we had a great marriage, I find myself getting very irritated at times and then feel terribly guilty as I know he cannot help it. A very dear friend has just lost her husband to cancer which I think has helped bring on my dark mood. She will grieve her loss but I feel wrong to grieve my loss as my husband is still here and feel very selfish for feeling like this. It's just good to be able to air my thoughts because I know here I will not be judged as you all have probably undergone these feelings at some time Every person coping with a person who has dementia has my greatest respect. This is not easy!