I am caring for my mum who has Altzheimers. It's just me and her at home and I have three siblings who are conspicuous by their absence. I work three days a week and I am trying to establish a self employed business as well. Just lately this has meant that I have been working almost every day. When I get home I have to deal with my mum who now cannot cook for herself, deal with financial issues, get to appointments on her own... Well you'll know how it is. The last few months she has also been getting up in the mornings and immediately getting upset crying because she can't remember what day it is (despite the giant clock which tells her on the wall). I find it very difficult to leave the house when she is in a state and I've started being late for work regularly though they have been very understanding. My boyfriend is great but he lives 40 miles away and we get to see each other only occasionally. I bought my mum one of those tablet dispensers with an alarm on it and she managed to rip the battery compartment cover off in a vain attempt to open it. This evening she handed it to me as I walked through the door saying that it doesn't work any more (no **** Sherlock I thought). Anyway, this has sent me over the edge this evening. I was a single parent for 15 years and happily my daughter is independent and settled in her life. I did a great job! But now she has left home just as my mum needs care. All those 15 years I was looking forward to being able to have some freedom to establish my art practice and have a life of my own but I now have, what I am afraid I can only see as this burden. I don't want to talk to any of my siblings, my friends or my boyfriend about this as they make sympathetic noises but they don't really know what it's like. You lot know what it's like. By posting on here I sort of feel that I'm not alone and that I know there are others out there who will know how I feel. I'm sorry - I guess I am feeling sorry for myself today and needed an outlet. I've tried chocolate and smoking already and they haven't helped. I keep eyeing the gin bottle but as I am working tomorrow perhaps it's not the best idea!