Morning all!
I'm sitting on the side of mums bed drinking tea and trying to get her to drink hers.Remembering how I used to do the same when I was a teenager after a night out,I'd come in,make tea,sit on the bed and tell them all about my night. Now she doesn't know me or remember anything we used to do. Just lies in bed,making those noises,sometimes having accidents,won't let the carers get her ready for bed.
When I read all of your posts, I feel guilty; you all seem to be carrying the burden without complaint,whereas I feel resentful every day. My children are 13,16,19 and 22. I want to spend time with them while they still want to. Go for a day out without clock watching, if its a day centre day. Stay in bed for another half hour instead if waiting for the carer. I want more patience and understanding,I'm always at the end of my tether. I want mum to know who I am and that I haven't abandoned her,have a laugh and joke like we used to.
I pray non-stop but don't think anyone is listening. Karma will bite me on the bum one day!
Why do people always ask how the cared for are? No-one ever asks carers how they are.
Sorry for rambling, there's no one else to off load on. Just finding this role very difficult.
I want my mum.
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I'm sitting on the side of mums bed drinking tea and trying to get her to drink hers.Remembering how I used to do the same when I was a teenager after a night out,I'd come in,make tea,sit on the bed and tell them all about my night. Now she doesn't know me or remember anything we used to do. Just lies in bed,making those noises,sometimes having accidents,won't let the carers get her ready for bed.
When I read all of your posts, I feel guilty; you all seem to be carrying the burden without complaint,whereas I feel resentful every day. My children are 13,16,19 and 22. I want to spend time with them while they still want to. Go for a day out without clock watching, if its a day centre day. Stay in bed for another half hour instead if waiting for the carer. I want more patience and understanding,I'm always at the end of my tether. I want mum to know who I am and that I haven't abandoned her,have a laugh and joke like we used to.
I pray non-stop but don't think anyone is listening. Karma will bite me on the bum one day!
Why do people always ask how the cared for are? No-one ever asks carers how they are.
Sorry for rambling, there's no one else to off load on. Just finding this role very difficult.
I want my mum.
,