I'm sure everyone reading this will be feeling very flat after the Christmas festivities. I am feeling exceptionally low as we have had all our family around until New Year and when they left I cried and cried and felt so alone. My husband has dementia and aphasia and I cannot communicate with him. Also his moods have become more frequent. One moment quite happy and then without any warning he turns and a look comes across his face which I recognise. He becomes very hostile (not physically) towards me. I have learned to ignore this mood and walk away but it really hurts. We have been married for 43 years and have been so very happy but now I am finding it very difficult to cope 24/7. I have just started having help 6 hours a week after many years of coping alone. The carer came this morning and I broke down and she said I definitely needed some respite. I cannot think of my husband going away even for a couple of days let alone a week. We have never been apart and the pain in my heart of what lies ahead is all consuming. Sorry for the rambling but I just needed to get this dreadful anxiety off my chest.