feeling so angry with bob


Registered User
Apr 26, 2006
i know its unfair he cant help it and for that i feel guilty
but he is picking at me a lot just lately
i am by nature soft any dont get cross but lately i am having to stand up to him which is not me

over the weekend he had a go at me 2 times the first time we were in town and i got cross it calmed him down yesterday he was really nasty and i was tired so i went to bed
he acted as if things were ok in the morning i was a bit quite he asked was i ok not really when i told him why he said well you get on my nerves telling me the dog needs feed back all the time rubbish so he went to play bowels i carried on later at night sat down to watch tv we usually hold hands i did not he said whats wrong i said the same as this morning he said well thats ok then after an hour i relented grabed his hand to be cont bel x

Grannie G

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Apr 3, 2006
Oh bel, he didn`t remember what was wrong did he.

I`ve had this for so long with Dhiren....we have a disagreement, I`m upset, we don`t speak for a while, he knows something`s wrong but can`t remember what, then he`s fine and I`m still upset.

Nothing will stop you getting upset and angry. Even knowing it`s the illness and he can`t help it, won`t stop you being hurt. It`s as if you are doing all the giving and he is doing all the taking and it`s very hard to live with.

You can`t really walk away from him if you are out, but you can if you are at home. Just walk away and leave him to it. He can`t have a go at himself. ;)

You do so much for him.

Love xx


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Apr 26, 2006
follow up on bel getting angry

i said come soft sausage lets stop this he said im sorry but you keep saying the same thing every week every day dog needs feed back i got cross and i was really angry
i said you repeat yourself over and over again it gets on my nerves but i dont shout at you
it feels like i need to put a zip on my mouth and only say what he wants to hear
love bel x


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Jan 4, 2006
Hiya Bel,
You are only human.....and things Bob says will hurt, and at the time it may not be much help telling yourself that it is the dementia. Try not to waste energy feeling guilty....try to let go of your anger as quickly as you can, cos it will only damage you, and maybe Bob will pick up on the tension and it will make his picking on you worse.

Well done relenting and holding his hand.....you are walking a tough path.....best to have someone to hold hands with.

Take care.
Love Helen


Registered User
Jul 10, 2007
Its really hard to seperate the person that your loved one was from the person they are now, complete with the illness. Its even harder to know if they are just being nasty or its the illness.

How I tend to do that is;

1 When Mum is being nasty, ITS NOT HER.

2 When Mums being nice, IT IS HER.

Now you dont have to feel guilty if you act human and shout back.

It works for me.


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Jan 29, 2008
Ashford, Kent
My Dad is so placid and sweet.

If ever he gets stressed and loses his temper (which isn't often), I just walk away. That person is not my Dad.

Last year, before I really realised how confused he gets, I heard him say something really nasty about me. I heard him telling my Mum I had only brought them to live with me to take all their money (the truth is, I am far worse off financially than I ever have been because I mortgaged myself to the hilt to buy a bigger house).

I went in their room and I really screamed at him, that if that is what he really thought, then I would give them back the money they gave me 5 years ago, and they could go and live elsewhere.:(

I'm really ashamed of what I did. That is why now, I just have to distinguish what I know would be my Dad's true and real traits, and those comments/habits etc. that are the result of his Dementia.

Beverley x


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Jul 31, 2007
Dear Bel,
Even when we know it is the illness, the hurt goes so deep.
Peter forgot that I was his wife. When a really lovely Carer came in each day, Peter would be all lovely to her, go out in the car, etc., when she went home, I did not get a word out of him until the next day when she came back.
I knew it was the illness but boy did it hurt big time.
Like you I am a very patient person but on these occassional, I lost it:
1 Thinking I was his ex wife who he divorced for adultery
2 When he was doubly incontinent, scrubbing carpet and he said I did not do it, to which I lost it and said it b****y well was not me.


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Sep 27, 2006
Dear Bel,

Most of us have been there - shouted our heads off and lost all patience and understanding - we'd be saints if we didn't. Then afterwards we've all worn the same XXX size guilt T shirt! No doubt we will continue in this sea sawing of love, exasperation, despair,and fleeting moments of happiness. My love to you. xxTinaT


Registered User
Apr 26, 2006
thanks all

thanks tina
do guilty t shirts come in all sizes i think we might get a discount if we ordred in bulk
even though i held bobs hand before we went to bed inside i was still angry its valentines day thursday and we are getting busy plus i have a large funeral order
bob cant do a lot but he does help when we are busy i wouldnt ask him he carried on building his ship it was going around in my head all the time you say the same thing all the time you get on my nerves if there was a medal for patience and soft ness i would win
then it was time to take bob to dentist 1 tooth out new bottom dentures fitted closed shop still not really talking when he came out i had to ask was he ok fine
no emotions from him-- went back to shop while we waited for 4-30 to take grandchildren to see water horse still not talking he went straight to his ship he is building love bel continued


Registered User
Nov 28, 2005
Hello Bel: I have been following your post but finding it hard to say suitable 'things'. It IS so hard - all I do is keep on praying for strength and tolerance. I think it is beginning to work most of the time, but not always.

If it gets really bad then I think the only thing to do is walk away for awhile, and then recognise that our 'cared for' have far more to tolerate than we do.

Keep up the good work - you are doing a marvellous job.
Love Jan


Registered User
Apr 26, 2006
still very angry

took more orders for for valentines day
i said lets go get kids what are we having for tea
i told him a few times we would take sarnis
picked kids up lovelly they are a god send

they loved the film we talked in between
i had to reach out and hold bobs hand cos i was worried lol and jen would notice nan and grandad are not holding hands
tonight since we camne home
i am still cross with him
but i held his hand and said

do not take your anger out on me i cant take it
love bel


Registered User
Jul 31, 2007
Dutuear Bel,
Before AD Peter forgot wedding aniversary (now why are you not surprised at that) forgot my birthday. Wedd. Ann. being the 21st Dec and birthday 21st Feb. My daughters use to remind putou him but he would still get it round the wrong way.
As Valentine's Day is coming up - what would Bob have got you ?
Flowers, chocolates ?
With Peter with AD I use to buy them myself and say thank you for the lovely flowers. What was funny (I can look back and laugh at it now) because he really did think he had got them for me. If it happened to be a box of my favourite Belgian chocolates, he would open them and sit and each them all to himself.
So when you put an order in for T Shirts, I will buy one.
Take care of yourself.
Very best wishes


Registered User
Apr 26, 2006
thanks again all

we are friends again thank god we dont normaly fall out after 37 years and a lot of them with this illness comming on
whats the point
but i am so grateful to have you all to talk to especialy when it gets bad
bob helped me as much as he can today in shop
lots of mistakes but so what
it is a spark of the old bob he trys his best and bless him first thing this morning he said after giving me a hug its good to have you back
i said i cant stand you getting nasty with me we will try to sort it out
he cant help it
love bel x

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