Hi Everyone,
Thought i would just let you all know what has happened since we last spoke.
I have called the district nurse in because just by chance i notice that my Mum has a bed sore now. I only notice it because the latest thing is she is saying she has washed but she hasnt and i notice that day she smelled a little of urine so i asked her if i could just give her a quick wash,when i notices the sore.District nurse came and dresses it said he would come back in a week and this special dressing would stay on till then but if it came off he lefted me a couple well guess what the next day and day after it was off i had to put on more. Also i have to now change the nightdress and clothes nearly every day as i can smell urine of she has not wiped her self properly and there is bit of excrement on them.i also notice she has not been cleaning her teeth. Oh this is not my lovely Mum she was always so elegant and emaclate,she would be broken if she knew i was saying these things.
She is now nearly imobile can only walk a short way,and she has now taken to staying up in the bedroom,and does not want to come down to the lounge,does not listen to her music anymore just pretends she is reading,sometime she tells you what the book is about and what is on the tv and i get so hopeful and think no its not dementia its just her age,then she does something strange again.
I must also admit as much as i dont want to i just cant kiss and cuddle her anymore i try but i just cant and i hate myself for it,as my beautiful Mum was my life and i loved her with all my heart and had such a close relationship,i just cant understand why i feel like this, she trys to cuddle me but i pull back what is wrong with me it not normal to feel like this,I just want my mum back and i know she is not coming. oh sorry i am really feeling sorry for myself dont mean too. Thanks everyone for listeningx
Thought i would just let you all know what has happened since we last spoke.
I have called the district nurse in because just by chance i notice that my Mum has a bed sore now. I only notice it because the latest thing is she is saying she has washed but she hasnt and i notice that day she smelled a little of urine so i asked her if i could just give her a quick wash,when i notices the sore.District nurse came and dresses it said he would come back in a week and this special dressing would stay on till then but if it came off he lefted me a couple well guess what the next day and day after it was off i had to put on more. Also i have to now change the nightdress and clothes nearly every day as i can smell urine of she has not wiped her self properly and there is bit of excrement on them.i also notice she has not been cleaning her teeth. Oh this is not my lovely Mum she was always so elegant and emaclate,she would be broken if she knew i was saying these things.
She is now nearly imobile can only walk a short way,and she has now taken to staying up in the bedroom,and does not want to come down to the lounge,does not listen to her music anymore just pretends she is reading,sometime she tells you what the book is about and what is on the tv and i get so hopeful and think no its not dementia its just her age,then she does something strange again.
I must also admit as much as i dont want to i just cant kiss and cuddle her anymore i try but i just cant and i hate myself for it,as my beautiful Mum was my life and i loved her with all my heart and had such a close relationship,i just cant understand why i feel like this, she trys to cuddle me but i pull back what is wrong with me it not normal to feel like this,I just want my mum back and i know she is not coming. oh sorry i am really feeling sorry for myself dont mean too. Thanks everyone for listeningx