well its 2 years today since hubby died,so its a bit of a low day, the chemo is getting to me now as I have several side effects to cope with,but tomorrow is my 5th session so only one more to go,I do miss hubby not having him to tell how I feel and if he was here a big hug would do wonders,Ive tried not to let the treatment get me down,but its hard at the moment,but I shall pack my sandwiches tomorrow and me and the daughter will go sit for 4 hours and natter about nothing.feel better now I have told some one even if you dont want to hear it it helps to know some one is listening