For the last four years I have lived with and cared for my parents mum has altzheimers dad is blind and diabetic I'm married but my husband works away a lot and can't cope with my mum my kids (20 & 13) try their best but to be honest I would rather they enjoyed life my friends don't really understand I joke about things that happen because if I don't laugh I will spend my day crying. I am constantly having demands thrown at me from all sides am never on my own but I feel so damn lonely I haven't had a break in 4 years and I am going on holiday in a fortnight just for a week mum is going into a care home for a weeks respite dad going to my brothers but I feel so guilty sorry people total pity party tonight just feeling low