Both my parents have early onset Alzheimers and I am the main carer. T oday I have had at least 5 phone calls from my dad about arrangements for tomorrow.( I am going round to cook a meal for Mothers Day ). I did not lose my temper but with each phone call I was getting more and more stressed.
A few weeks agoIi had a bit of a meltdown and had to take a couple of weeks off work and take some time out from them.I am awaiting counselling and am now back in my caring role and trying to be a little more selfish with my time. However, I can feel myself drifting back into my old ways. Anyway , after a busy Friday with them I took today off (despite the calls) and became a couch potato for the day. I must admit, with hindsigh it was probably not a good idea. I am still a little down and maybe I should have taken myself out for a walk.
I'll get to the point now.... the last call was from my mother who told me the carers had not been and she had not had her medication. I hastily presumed that she may have forgotten they had been and when she pointed out 'how would I forget something like that!' I decided to use an example from last Sunday when she was adamant my brother had not been round been when I knew for a fact that he had. I know it was the wrong thing to say and in a better fram of mind I would have chosen not to but I was rather stressed at this point and lost my temper a little as did my mum who told me to forget it and put the phone down! My mother gets extremely anxious about her meds, about anything really and I didn t support her. I did call my brother and ask him to go round instead, however, I now feel so awful. I am crying as I write this because I am feeling so gulity. Am I so bad?!! I don't know what to do next!
A few weeks agoIi had a bit of a meltdown and had to take a couple of weeks off work and take some time out from them.I am awaiting counselling and am now back in my caring role and trying to be a little more selfish with my time. However, I can feel myself drifting back into my old ways. Anyway , after a busy Friday with them I took today off (despite the calls) and became a couch potato for the day. I must admit, with hindsigh it was probably not a good idea. I am still a little down and maybe I should have taken myself out for a walk.
I'll get to the point now.... the last call was from my mother who told me the carers had not been and she had not had her medication. I hastily presumed that she may have forgotten they had been and when she pointed out 'how would I forget something like that!' I decided to use an example from last Sunday when she was adamant my brother had not been round been when I knew for a fact that he had. I know it was the wrong thing to say and in a better fram of mind I would have chosen not to but I was rather stressed at this point and lost my temper a little as did my mum who told me to forget it and put the phone down! My mother gets extremely anxious about her meds, about anything really and I didn t support her. I did call my brother and ask him to go round instead, however, I now feel so awful. I am crying as I write this because I am feeling so gulity. Am I so bad?!! I don't know what to do next!