Hi everyone,
I feel bad because I haven't contributed very much in the way of replies on the site lately. My Dad died a week ago , have already put a post on about what happened, and got some replies which really helped. He lived with me for 3 months while my stepmum was ill, and I am really glad I had that time with him. But since he died all I can think about is all the things I did wrong when he was with me . I didn't realise how bad he was until then , because he was always good at ' covering up'. Now i know that I wasted so much time trying to make him understand things, and was so concerned with telling him the truth, and I know I must have upset him, Also I did get so exasperated some times and shouted at him a couple of times, but I always apologised and gave him a hug afterwards. I just wish I'd told him whatever made him happy at the time, and forgot about being honest. At that time I didn.t know about this site, it would have helped so much.
I suppose it's part of the grief, but all I can think at the moment is that I want that time again to do things differently. I would just be grateful to hear from anyone who has gone through the same feelings, and how they coped.
best wishes to all of you,
fozz
I feel bad because I haven't contributed very much in the way of replies on the site lately. My Dad died a week ago , have already put a post on about what happened, and got some replies which really helped. He lived with me for 3 months while my stepmum was ill, and I am really glad I had that time with him. But since he died all I can think about is all the things I did wrong when he was with me . I didn't realise how bad he was until then , because he was always good at ' covering up'. Now i know that I wasted so much time trying to make him understand things, and was so concerned with telling him the truth, and I know I must have upset him, Also I did get so exasperated some times and shouted at him a couple of times, but I always apologised and gave him a hug afterwards. I just wish I'd told him whatever made him happy at the time, and forgot about being honest. At that time I didn.t know about this site, it would have helped so much.
I suppose it's part of the grief, but all I can think at the moment is that I want that time again to do things differently. I would just be grateful to hear from anyone who has gone through the same feelings, and how they coped.
best wishes to all of you,
fozz