When I placed mum in a home last May I never felt guilty as such because I had explored every possible avenue to keep mum at home but hit a brick wall every time. The sorrow always run deep but the guilt now, is enormous. Some may remember my post based on the lack of care mum received after her fall and my concerns about her personal care. All these things were addressed with management. I was given all the lame excuses and assured things would improve, her personal care did improve but was short lived. About ten days ago when I visited mum she had a crepe bandage on her leg when I asked her what had happened to her leg she looked down at the bandage and said, some one must have sneaked in when I wasn't looking and put that on, I don't know what their caper is. I told her to leave it on and whoever put it there would come back for it, she thought that was a good idea. (I think I'm madder than her at times.) The most feasible reason for her cut leg is she walked into something.(probably no glasses) Mum removed the bandage and the wound was then dressed with gauze, sterile patch and tape. I was concerned about the redness and went and asked the RN if she could look at mum's leg when she had a spare minute her reply was I'll come now as I don't want to be in trouble ( this remark was because of the other incident that I took to management) I choose to ignore that comment as I'm sure it was just to let me know she wasn't happy over the management involvement, she would have being less happy if I had of taken it to the CEO. The RN said she would keep a eye on mum's leg and if the GP visited she would have him look at it. The GP didn't visit, the leg didn't get any better and in all fairness mum's picking at the wound didn't help. Last Monday I wasn't happy with mum or her leg and went to tell the RN, she was on holidays and the other RN came and said mum needs antibiotics and because the GP wouldn't be in until the end of the week she would fax and request a prescription for antibiotics this was Monday and she thought that they should arrive Tuesday afternoon at the latest. Tuesday, mum is very agitated she always asks about coming home and I told her that I would take her to my daughters tomorrow. I couldn't take her then because I had running around to do for dad. Wednesday, mum is sound asleep in the chair when I arrived I took her to my daughters and she slept nearly the whole time the carer told me that she had to wake mum that morning and said she was confused. No antibiotics had arrived I phoned again last night to see if they had come and was told no. This morning I went to the RN and asked WHY no antibiotics, this is the reason she gave me; I know I told you that I faxed the GP but, he never got back to me and he came yesterday and I got him to see your mother and he has ordered antibiotics and hopefully they arrive to-day. I just feel sick with all of this and if anything happens to mum while she is there it's more my fault because I am aware of things. My daughters friend is a care attendant and rang and told me not to bring mum home as her experience with people doing so after the resident had became institutionalised is disastrous. I have looked into another home which I have heard is excellent only fifteen residents but with the waiting list, priority is given to whom posts the largest bond and the money they are talking, the house would have to be sold but, not possible, as dad lives there and he could go also into the assisted hostel, but he wont. I don't blame him. Thanks for listening I'm feeling really down. Taffy.