Hello Mum suddenly seems to have gone downhill. Yesterday I watched as she tried to work out where she should put the potatoes. She opened one cupboard door and then another. Finally she looked at me askance. I told her where the veg rack was and she said, 'of course, of course, my head is everywhere.' I thought, this is it, she's moving further away. She's also started making up little stories; mainly, I guess because she can't remember facts. For the first time, I've realised that her short term memory is completely shot. Of course, I've suspected it was bad, but not as bad as it is; always wanting to give her credit and prompting her. She is very lonely and yet refuses any intervention in terms of day care and so she exists from one day to the next. She is beginning to look like a frail little bird. She put on a pair of trousers and looked like she'd got lost in them, they were so big. Neighbours have told me that she's very low and sometimes asks for money (says she's often run out - probably because she's spent it on 'things'). I'm worried about the finance side of things as although I've limited her access: I have unregistered EPA, she can still go to the bank (I don't live near so can't dole it out when needed). I feel really, really sad. I know I'll get over this until the next time, but she won't and I guess that's what hurts the most. Sorry to sound so depressed! I can usually find some humour in a situation and my mum is (was) like sunshine ... but she's disappearing in front of me and it's cold when the sun goes in. Thanks for listening, just needed to vent. I've had a bad day and now I've the joys of tea to think about; boiling spuds and spinning a salad!