Hi everyone
Thank you for your lovely messages of support. I guess I am doing ok and not totally falling apart . However on the inside the sense of emptiness and loss is overwhelming . My dad is at peace and for that I am truly grateful because he suffered for long enough. But my heart feels totally broken, shattered in fact, and I wonder if it will ever heal again. . It's just hard to accept that he has gone forever and that we will never see him again but I guess over time all of these feelings will get easier to deal with? Some people have said "at least you had time to prepare" but to be honest I feel more unprepared than I have ever felt. The overwhelming grief and sadness has consumed my body and most of the time I feel like I'm walking around in a bubble of delirium! I miss him so much but it's true to say I missed him when he was "alive" because as we all know the mind goes way before the body so at this point in time I guess I am a work in progress but I know with my fabulous family and friends around me I will get there one day and it will all make sense.
Thank you so much for all of your lovely words and messages of support and encouragement, it's helped so much.... Sending lots of love and best wishes to each of you ❤️X
Thank you for your lovely messages of support. I guess I am doing ok and not totally falling apart . However on the inside the sense of emptiness and loss is overwhelming . My dad is at peace and for that I am truly grateful because he suffered for long enough. But my heart feels totally broken, shattered in fact, and I wonder if it will ever heal again. . It's just hard to accept that he has gone forever and that we will never see him again but I guess over time all of these feelings will get easier to deal with? Some people have said "at least you had time to prepare" but to be honest I feel more unprepared than I have ever felt. The overwhelming grief and sadness has consumed my body and most of the time I feel like I'm walking around in a bubble of delirium! I miss him so much but it's true to say I missed him when he was "alive" because as we all know the mind goes way before the body so at this point in time I guess I am a work in progress but I know with my fabulous family and friends around me I will get there one day and it will all make sense.
Thank you so much for all of your lovely words and messages of support and encouragement, it's helped so much.... Sending lots of love and best wishes to each of you ❤️X