How to feel ???
Hi Everyone,
I have been popping onto TP for months now wanting to post a thread telling you all about my mom, but couldn't find the right words.
After reading you thread I couldn't help but reply. Mom was diagnosed last January and other than slight forgetfulness she was doing ok, other than not baring to be left alone. My Dad (who split up with mom 20 years ago) started staying 5 nights a week while my brother worked. Things carried on pretty much as normal, other than mom not wanting to leave the house so we'd walk up and down the garden if the weather was nice.
Last July she was wondering in the night and fell and broke her Hip she was in hospital for 2 months and the deteriation in her condition was equally astonishing and heartbreaking. She couldn't walk anymore and seemed not to care to try, but we encouraged her as much as possible. She came home and an air bed was supplied and carers come in 4 times a day to wash and change her, before the fall she was going to the toilet etc herslef still ok. Then just before christmas she had a stroke she lost the use of her left arm and the left side of her face has dropped. She can no longer feed herself and when offered she will barely eat or refuse. She is just skin and bone.
Every now and then she will talk to me normally, she said last week "what has our life come to bab" ? I just said i don't know mom then she said "my life is rushing past me, I don't know whats going on". It's just completely heartbreaking my best friend no longer responds to my smiles and comfort.
The Doctor came to see her yesterday and said "she is very weak, just give her TLC thats all you can do", I asked him outright is she dying and he said "she is very weak it could happen anytime in her sleep anytime" and he went...
I wish i had posted earlier so I could have been better prepared (if you ever can be that is) for what is to come. Although we watched my Nan die 6 years ago from the same terrible illness she was alive for 10 years after diagnoses and I thought Mom would be the same or at least hoped.
So now here I am faced with the worst thing ive ever had to face and i feel completely helpless, hopeless, and unable to make any sense of my feelings.
I hope what I have written makes some sense it just sort of came out in one big rush.
Louise x
Hi Everyone,
I have been popping onto TP for months now wanting to post a thread telling you all about my mom, but couldn't find the right words.
After reading you thread I couldn't help but reply. Mom was diagnosed last January and other than slight forgetfulness she was doing ok, other than not baring to be left alone. My Dad (who split up with mom 20 years ago) started staying 5 nights a week while my brother worked. Things carried on pretty much as normal, other than mom not wanting to leave the house so we'd walk up and down the garden if the weather was nice.
Last July she was wondering in the night and fell and broke her Hip she was in hospital for 2 months and the deteriation in her condition was equally astonishing and heartbreaking. She couldn't walk anymore and seemed not to care to try, but we encouraged her as much as possible. She came home and an air bed was supplied and carers come in 4 times a day to wash and change her, before the fall she was going to the toilet etc herslef still ok. Then just before christmas she had a stroke she lost the use of her left arm and the left side of her face has dropped. She can no longer feed herself and when offered she will barely eat or refuse. She is just skin and bone.
Every now and then she will talk to me normally, she said last week "what has our life come to bab" ? I just said i don't know mom then she said "my life is rushing past me, I don't know whats going on". It's just completely heartbreaking my best friend no longer responds to my smiles and comfort.
The Doctor came to see her yesterday and said "she is very weak, just give her TLC thats all you can do", I asked him outright is she dying and he said "she is very weak it could happen anytime in her sleep anytime" and he went...
I wish i had posted earlier so I could have been better prepared (if you ever can be that is) for what is to come. Although we watched my Nan die 6 years ago from the same terrible illness she was alive for 10 years after diagnoses and I thought Mom would be the same or at least hoped.
So now here I am faced with the worst thing ive ever had to face and i feel completely helpless, hopeless, and unable to make any sense of my feelings.
I hope what I have written makes some sense it just sort of came out in one big rush.
Louise x