Even after a few years after my mum's death, I still feel my mind ruminating and feel so sad. She became so rigid and unresponsive and feel lack of stimulation with only having me to visit may have contributed to her decline. I just didn't really think I could change anything. We had a great relationship always and when she went into a nursing home for her dementia I visited everyday but more often it was only a short visit never more than an hour towards the end. I have a young family so did feel stressed trying to manage time generally. For some reason a memory of a social worker visiting and mum being more responsive in the increased interaction keeps coming into my mind and I feel guilty that I didn't maybe take that as a sign she needed more company. I was always running around trying to manage my life that I never really stopped to plan more with her and I feel guilty. I do have siblings but they did not visit not because of bad relations just lack of sensitivity not the type to ever really ask after their mum. I just feel this feeling has grown like a snowball and my feeling of sadness for her isolation and my guilt for not maybe seeing the bigger picture is affecting me everyday. Thanks for the ramble it is hard to explain all but I can't seem to put this out of mind. She was the kindest and truest lady and feel sad she didn't get the attention from others she deserved as in her life she never was the type to expect from others. Maybe I am thinking she would suddenly have changed and deep down she would have been happier but it is the fact now it is too late. Any advice appreciated or similar experiences. Thanks.