Now I'm even talking to myself - and not only in the house!!
Loo, I do that too! Round the house, my excuse is that I'm talking to Skye. I have to watch myself when I'm wandering round M&S though!
I do count my blessings that although alone, I do still have my husband be he some mles away, despite dementia stealing him away bit by bit, whereas others have suffered both this and the ultimate loss.
Loo, I hope I'm not going to upset anyone with this. I said it in the video I made recently, and there were some surprised looks.
For me, the bereavement was when John went into care. It was sudden, completely unexpected, and it broke my heart.
But I knew that John was never coming home, and that at some time he would die. When it happened, although again it was sudden, it was not totally out of the blue. I coped with that much better than I expected, though I still have some very bad times.
Now, I know that I have to make a life for myself, and I've made myself join lots of groups. Some are not for me, and I've withdrawn again, but my diary is pretty full, and I've made new friends.
I won't pretend it's easy, but for me, it's easier than when I felt guilty about not being able to give John the care I wanted to.
Don't feel that your lot is better, Loo. For me, that was the worst of all times.
Love and hugs,