The last couple of weeks have been particularly difficult. Losing the one you love is so hard. I have been to a Memorial Service, which I found difficult, a Carol Service, which brought back so many memories and today, finally, Roger's memorial is going to be put up on his grave. Being a woodland, the materials have to be biodegradable, so I have chosen a natural oak log with an engraving and two carved robins sitting on the top. The trouble is we had so many memorable events around Christmas, we married on 20th December, 7 years ago, and had met 37 years prior to that on Christmas Eve. Well I got through the wedding anniversary and will get through the others - one step at a time. I had better go an get my wellies on for this as the woodland is muddy.