I lost my lovely Dad in December after he had been 'eroded' by Alzheimer's for several years. Like a lot of people do, I lost myself in organising the funeral, then sorting out his financial affairs. I went back to work after only a few days and carried on as normal both there and at home. Perhaps unsurprisingly, I have recently hit a wall of grief and seem to spend most of my time thinking about Dad and missing him with every passing moment. It feels foolish to say to friends how much I am hurting after five months have passed and I am not close to the rest of my family so don't feel able to talk to anyone.
Dad wrote a letter many years ago to be opened after his death which says that he didn't want anyone to be sad after he had gone. Now I can't stop feeling like Dad can sense my feelings and see what I am thinking all the time. I feel like I have let him down which is upsetting me further. I just wondered if this was a common sensation (this is my first family bereavement) or if I am just a bit peculiar?!
Thanks for reading - it has helped a bit to let some of it out.
Rusty
Dad wrote a letter many years ago to be opened after his death which says that he didn't want anyone to be sad after he had gone. Now I can't stop feeling like Dad can sense my feelings and see what I am thinking all the time. I feel like I have let him down which is upsetting me further. I just wondered if this was a common sensation (this is my first family bereavement) or if I am just a bit peculiar?!
Thanks for reading - it has helped a bit to let some of it out.
Rusty