3 weeks on......
Am having these terrible times of self doubt............why didn't i realise death was so close, could I have done something different, why didn't i stay with Mum...........the list is endless.
Just difficult to believe that everything happened so quickly, was I just ignoring what was obvious to other people? There are people in much worse situations at the care home, so I didn't think it was Mums 'turn'.
Feel so stupid, I'm an intelligent 50 plus woman who just can't seem to grasp the reality of everything.
Am having these terrible times of self doubt............why didn't i realise death was so close, could I have done something different, why didn't i stay with Mum...........the list is endless.
Just difficult to believe that everything happened so quickly, was I just ignoring what was obvious to other people? There are people in much worse situations at the care home, so I didn't think it was Mums 'turn'.
Feel so stupid, I'm an intelligent 50 plus woman who just can't seem to grasp the reality of everything.