My first time here.It's a long story which I will try to keep brief.My mother died with alzheimers two years ago aged 95.Until two years before she died she kept a diary which I have been reading,In 2015 the family was very aware she was losing her memory and getting very confused but we had no diagnosis then.I was visiting twice a week to take her shopping,go out for a ride,take her dancing(her passion).My three brothers were doing their bit but I did most of the day to day stuff. Well I have been horrified and disgusted at the vile and spiteful things she wrote about me nearly every time I saw her.She never said any of this to my face.Of course I was aware she could be tricky but not this.I thought we had a good relationship although earlier diaries have revealed a dislike for me which I never knew about.My brothers were "kind" "dear boys".She never gave me credit for anything or thanks! I feel as if I've been conned---into thinking she enjoyed my company(as I did hers) but all along she was waiting to write the next nasty saga in her diary.Thoughts please.