Can anyone tell me they have these same awful feelings.I am 50 and care for my 68 year old husband who has had Parkinson's for 12 years and Lewy body dementia for 3. Whilst I should consider myself fortuate that most of the time he can care for himself, I feel totally trapped and that my life has slipped away.I get no help(he will not entertain any assistance)We have no family apart from his 2 useless children that don't give a dam.I feel so angry all the time- with what I'm not sure. Everything I try to do for him is mostly thrown back in my face. I know he can't help this and I should be more tolerante. I feel a totaly selfish uncaring wife.
I wish sometimes I had the courage to walk away- yes I can here people saying that is the cowards ways out- but I do love him and care what happens to him.If I left he would probably go into care although he is not at that stage but could'nt look after himself. Then I don't know how I would cope financially-all our money is tied up in the house and we live on his pension and benifits.I feel it's all such a mess. If I feel like this now-what will the future hold when things get really bad.
All this anger and frustration does not do our relationship any good and is just harbouring hurt and frustration for both of us.
Please tell me how I can get over this
I wish sometimes I had the courage to walk away- yes I can here people saying that is the cowards ways out- but I do love him and care what happens to him.If I left he would probably go into care although he is not at that stage but could'nt look after himself. Then I don't know how I would cope financially-all our money is tied up in the house and we live on his pension and benifits.I feel it's all such a mess. If I feel like this now-what will the future hold when things get really bad.
All this anger and frustration does not do our relationship any good and is just harbouring hurt and frustration for both of us.
Please tell me how I can get over this