Monique is very depressed these last days - does not want to get up - out of bed - thinks life is pointless and boring. When I try to persuade her to get dressed she just asks what's the point? What is there to do? She has also returned to the desire to return to the UK - London where life is 'better'. I must say she finds little pleasure in anything. I wonder if this is perhaps all part of the Exiba effect - she is now on full dosage - making it clearer in her mind that her life is a mess - without reason or meaning.... that seems to be her reasons for being depressed or she is just depressed and this expresses the depression - does the 11.55 leave Paddington or does Paddington leave the ... Did a web search to see if depression was a side effect of this drug but depression is not mentioned. Mind you she is also started a cholesterol reducing drug so who knows? Not quite sure where to go from here... Maybe a visit to the doctor.. Give it a day or two - maybe this is just a progression of the un-natural order... Just had the first bit of French Social Security help - I have a young lady - not a nurse but from an agency that is supported by the SS who have people to 'assist' folks with AD or similar... the deal is she comes in for 4 hours one day a week, does a little light cleaning and keeps the 'patient' company enabling me to get out of the house for more than just half an hour or so.... She could come in for an hour a day or similar.... She kept monique company yesterday PM - did not do any cleaning but I was able to go and play - Monique asked who that woman was but otherwise seems no worse for the visit... The GP thinks I should get her used to having strange people in the house as it will happen more in the future... The state subsidises this visit but it still costs me 12 €Euro an hour - €48 Euro for my half day of liberty = £32 UK pounds ---- does a similar system happen in the UK? There is the possibility of social security nurse, who will come in daily for free, when events get to that stage. No problem the GP assured me sending me off to the SS... Like the 'subsidised' home help it was not that easy. I was told at the very friendly SS department - the town has nurses to look after 50 people in the mornings - there are currently 56 needing this help so there is a waiting list of 6 - waiting for 6 of the 50 to die!!! All that glistens is not gold is it... I get the feeling, from others posts, that it is a similar (or worse??) situation in the UK to where Monique tells me she wishes to return - Trouble with that wish is that the 'things' she has been obsessed (?) with in the past have given her little or no pleasure when I have made the desire happen.... Can sell up and return but will it really help??? Bound to disappoint her as she wants to go back to a situation that I know no longer exists and I cannot think how to recreate it for her.. Impossible probably but maybe it really would make her happier - Maybe we should try it - and I am good at desision making - well I was.. Sorry - just sort of chuntering on - got the blues myself a bit - catching - and not quite sure which way is up.