Dementia has a terrible impact, it leaves something I don't think I will ever forget..
Today is the first day back to work, a month after my mum passed away frrom it's hateful consequences. All I can think of are ....
...the hallucinations, the fear she had, panic, loneliness, bewilderment, confusion, utter sadness, UTIs, incontinence, urine smells, desperation, misery, lost dignity but also her bravery when she tried to connect to me... It's just such a mind shattering thing to suffer.
So I know it'll be 'back to work.. ok' but it's not, I can't just wipe out the last years like it never happened... people who haven't experienced it just don't get it... That what I'll experience now.
Sweet
Today is the first day back to work, a month after my mum passed away frrom it's hateful consequences. All I can think of are ....
...the hallucinations, the fear she had, panic, loneliness, bewilderment, confusion, utter sadness, UTIs, incontinence, urine smells, desperation, misery, lost dignity but also her bravery when she tried to connect to me... It's just such a mind shattering thing to suffer.
So I know it'll be 'back to work.. ok' but it's not, I can't just wipe out the last years like it never happened... people who haven't experienced it just don't get it... That what I'll experience now.
Sweet