I'm sure Bridget wasn't wondering why she was quarantined and others had their freedom - that would take a lot more understanding and reason than she has now. It's the same for whether or not you visit - she won't wonder where you are or be confused.
But that's half the problem I think and I'm really not surprised you wish it was over. If she had some other illness or was in a hospital, you could visit and there would still be interaction, appreciation. Even if you both spent the visits crying it would be shared crying. But with dementia, the connection is so completely lost in the later stages. I know there were times I visited my mum when I felt I could just as easily have visited one of the other residents for all the difference it made. But although she called you 'dad', there was some recognition. She knew that she knew you and that you were an important person in her life - that's a big thing.
Your are stuck in a limbo-land and it's all completely out of your control. It's not wrong to want that to end. I often wondered, 'How long can this go on?' and realised that for many of us, caring would be so much easier if we had an 'end date', grim as that sounds.
But that's half the problem I think and I'm really not surprised you wish it was over. If she had some other illness or was in a hospital, you could visit and there would still be interaction, appreciation. Even if you both spent the visits crying it would be shared crying. But with dementia, the connection is so completely lost in the later stages. I know there were times I visited my mum when I felt I could just as easily have visited one of the other residents for all the difference it made. But although she called you 'dad', there was some recognition. She knew that she knew you and that you were an important person in her life - that's a big thing.
Your are stuck in a limbo-land and it's all completely out of your control. It's not wrong to want that to end. I often wondered, 'How long can this go on?' and realised that for many of us, caring would be so much easier if we had an 'end date', grim as that sounds.