I went to see Bridget for the first time in 10 days. As i can’t drive at the moment due to my operation my daughter Claire (Bridget’s step daughter) drove me and sat in the car.
Bridget was asleep in the lounge and she’s woken up and led to the window. Is it my imagination or has she lost more weight ? As soon as she saw me she brightend and i gave her flowers and fruit which she enjoys. I was a little shocked at her appearance. She said are you going now, blew kisses, waved goodbye.
I usually go back to the car and cry but i held back in front of Claire, i just couldn’t.
Later i phoned the home and they said she’s fine, happy, eating well. I cannot accept her being there and being content. I want to be content and happy but with her and i know, yes i know it can’t be so and, as you all know, that’s probably the most upsetting thing. That your love one canot be with you to share the rest of your life together. That future isn’t yours to decide now.
I’m sitting here, in the dark, probably going to watch another stupid movie and comfort eat.
All my love to you all
Peter