Peter, bless both you and Bridget. Go gently in the next phase of your life, no need to rush, think, ponder and reflect. Life becomes different but we are still the same older, wiser, sad, happy, tears and laughter but life must go on. Look to help, volunteer for a couple of things see how you go and find what suits you. It will be hard at first but don’t give up, think of others you are helping, enabling them to live in their best way possible. My heart breaks for you but you must continue with your way through life through the help you give others . Prayers xx