I’m not coping today. I need to write this down. I feel I can’t go on living like this anymore and sometimes I wish the virus would finish me off. But I have a daughter who would miss me and suffer and I can’t put her through what I’m going through.
What can I possibly do to make myself feel better, but there nothing, and it’s hopeless.
I’ve just phoned the home and Bridget was asked to speak to me but she didn’t want to speak to me as she’s confused to who I am. My darling wife is a shell of what she was i need to comfort her but can’t. Acceptance is impossible because even with the dementia she was my woman to look after.
My house is so empty and still now and I’m interested to know how others cope with this grief. What’s not helping is that I’m on hormone tablets which can make you possibly more emotional.
I’m fed up crying, fed up worrying and want some form of respite from it all. I often go back to bed or curl up on the sofa at any time because it’s a comfort. Some say that’s not healthy but they need to live in my shoes to realise the pain of it all.
gone on a bit.
Peter
What can I possibly do to make myself feel better, but there nothing, and it’s hopeless.
I’ve just phoned the home and Bridget was asked to speak to me but she didn’t want to speak to me as she’s confused to who I am. My darling wife is a shell of what she was i need to comfort her but can’t. Acceptance is impossible because even with the dementia she was my woman to look after.
My house is so empty and still now and I’m interested to know how others cope with this grief. What’s not helping is that I’m on hormone tablets which can make you possibly more emotional.
I’m fed up crying, fed up worrying and want some form of respite from it all. I often go back to bed or curl up on the sofa at any time because it’s a comfort. Some say that’s not healthy but they need to live in my shoes to realise the pain of it all.
gone on a bit.
Peter