i I found out today that my wife has got thrush in her mouth so that why shes off her food. Seems that giving antibiotics for UTIs also gets rid of the good stuff in the mouth and lets the bacteria in. Medicine being given today. I’m all over the place sometimes with this awfulness of this situation. It affects all I think and do. I sometimes dread going to see her because of the unhappiness she shows in her face and that upsets me. I have these thoughts that I can’t express to anyone apart from the forum. I think that perhaps life would be less upsetting if she passed away. Her life can’t be that happy in the home and as my wife she stopped being my friend, lover, companion and my everything some time ago. But, my goodness, I would miss her and can’t imagine ever getting over that. We’re stuck aren’t we in this circle of guilt, sadness, helplessness and stress I always thought this would happen to other people, not us.