Am I being unkind by leaving my mother living on her own? She has some nice carers, but her memory has just plummeted in the last couple of weeks - I thought it was to do with the weather but I'm really worried that she has taken another step down and lost a bit more of her mind. Her memory is now so bad, she is asking the same question over and over, but then says "oh, what on earth is wrong with me?" and then seems to remember whatever she was asking, then after another couple of minutes says something else bizarre then before I can respond she will say " Oh, of course this is my house" , or " of course you don't live here, silly me". etc. It's really heartbreaking, and she keeps phoning me late at night because she's read something somewhere and thinks someone is taking her house away - and I know it's for reassurance, so if I can't drive over there for some reason I spend all night worrying about her and feeling guilty for making her live on her own. If my partner is over for the night he will go and see her and she feels much better having a man in her house. I can';t have her live with me unless I get some serious alterations done, downstairs bathroom for a start. I don;t want her ending up in a care home, but I just don;t think it would work if we lived together. My life is taken up with her most of the time now, and I don;t think I would get a moment's freedom or rest - she is highly anxious, has always wanted to know where I am and who I'm with, and I think it will be so much worse as the dementia gets worse. I am tearing my hair out with worry over this - I keep crying, I'm drinking every night just to numb the thoughts out of my mind, I'm constantly on edge waiting for the phone to ring or for the carers to phone me with some problem. How long can this go on - I just don;t know how this will all end.
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