Hello everyone I know It's early days but some times I've found I can't do anything!! I'm feeling sad, lonely, empty & that a big part of me has gone. I still don't believe I won't be visiting my mum again. I have been waking up remembering past events that have happened over the last few years. It's like I can't shut down. There have been days when I have tried to push myself to go out but my body has disagreed.
The next few weeks will be the hardest and I am not sure if I will get through both emotionally & physically. I have visions of me collapsing at mum's funeral. I know I have got to keep myself together. When I have managed to go out the world is still the same. Nothing has changed outside. The trees are the same, the people are the same. The only thing that has changed is "Me" & how this has affected me. I'm the one mourning as I've just lost my mum. No one knows you're sad. You just have to carry on regardless. x
The next few weeks will be the hardest and I am not sure if I will get through both emotionally & physically. I have visions of me collapsing at mum's funeral. I know I have got to keep myself together. When I have managed to go out the world is still the same. Nothing has changed outside. The trees are the same, the people are the same. The only thing that has changed is "Me" & how this has affected me. I'm the one mourning as I've just lost my mum. No one knows you're sad. You just have to carry on regardless. x