Thank you for the welcome shedrech. TP has been the most invaluable source of comfort and support over the last few years. I'd never posted before Wednesday, but I'd always found a thread or comment that had helped me or given me strength at a time when I really needed answers or affirmation. This forum really is invaluable.
Confused12 I really felt your pain. At a time when I was going through exactly the same emotions. But as many have said here, the end of your mum's suffering and your torment will come eventually, when she is really ready to leave
My darling mum finally gave up her fight at 7am this morning in after a month in hospital. I felt the same way as you... Wondering how on earth she's surviving when she's 86, 5 ½ stone and hasn't eaten or drunk properly since November!! She was admitted into hospital with a chest infection and severe dehydration (as she was sleeping much she was hardly awake to drink or eat) and she'd hardly eaten or drunk anything while in hospital and was placed in palliative 'dying patient' care, as they now call it, on Wednesday. She'd been sleeping almost constantly for the last week. We saw her last night and she still could give me a bit of a smile and grabbed mine and my dad's hand when we told her what an amazing mother and wife she'd been. She even had tears falling and her dementia was very advanced so I'm still amazed she still knew who we were. I'm heartbroken she's finally gone yet so relieved at the same time..A feeling I imagine many, many other families and loved ones of deceased dementia sufferers also feel.
Confused12, from what you've said, you're mum is very, very close to the end and you've told her how much you love her and that's the most important. Hang in there. Your release will come very soon xx