Well we are here and it has been a long time coming, nearly 4 weeks to be precise... .
A very broad mix of emotions atm and kind of just want to get going...
I hope I can do my dad proud when I stand up to read his eulogy, I keep trying to be so strong and to not fall apart, well at least until after I've read it but the memories and beautiful stories are so painful but wonderful at the same time.
I knew I would be upset and sad when I lost either one of my parents but the emptiness and heartache is almost unbearable at times... I feel cheated by AD because I feel like I didn't get the chance to tell dad (when he still knew me) exactly how I feel about him and to thank him for all of the wonderful memories. . I just hope he knew us all well enough to know how much we all love and miss him.
I hope today, although it will be sad, will be a day of beautiful memories and reflection and to remember the most amazing, wonderful and thoughtful dad who was selfless to the very end.....
Wish me luck as nervous as anything....
A very broad mix of emotions atm and kind of just want to get going...
I hope I can do my dad proud when I stand up to read his eulogy, I keep trying to be so strong and to not fall apart, well at least until after I've read it but the memories and beautiful stories are so painful but wonderful at the same time.
I knew I would be upset and sad when I lost either one of my parents but the emptiness and heartache is almost unbearable at times... I feel cheated by AD because I feel like I didn't get the chance to tell dad (when he still knew me) exactly how I feel about him and to thank him for all of the wonderful memories. . I just hope he knew us all well enough to know how much we all love and miss him.
I hope today, although it will be sad, will be a day of beautiful memories and reflection and to remember the most amazing, wonderful and thoughtful dad who was selfless to the very end.....
Wish me luck as nervous as anything....