I apologise now for sounding a bit pathetic . Just felting a bit low just now . It's my dad's anniversary today and for the first year I visited his grave on my own . I normally take my mum but I brought her at Christmas and she asked where we were . When I said it was dad's grave she looked blankly at me and dismissed it . So today , I just took her to her club and came myself . This disease is horrible enough but not being able to remember your husband and being able to support your daughter properly is just so sad. In a way I'm glad she doesn't remember much as the two of them were so devoted and loved each other very much . They were fabulous parents . I miss them both , even though it's only one who has died .