Dad has gone. I feel such guilt.
Hello All.
My Dad has just died. I am very sad, I have been posting on this forum (and reading posts)for around 3 years.
My dad went into a care home a few weeks ago as Mum felt she couldn't cope anymore.
After a couple of weeks he started to stay in his bed most of the day. He just wanted to sleep all the time. His limbs began to swell,his hands and feet were swollen most of the time. Then his abdomen and face got swollen.
The doctor was called on a few occasions. The dose was increased on his water tablets.
Nothing made much difference.
When visitors came Dad would just lie on the bed and talk to them with his eyes shut.
His confusion increased.
Christmas was terrible. The home puts on a lovely Christmas lunch for residents and relatives, Mum went and my brother but Dad didn't understand what was going on and just wanted to go and lie on his bed.
My mum and I visited him the last time on New Year's Eve. We managed to get him up and sitting in a chair. We helped him eat a satsuma and some grapes. He was breathless eating the satsuma, and a grape caused him to have a near choking fit.
We spoke to the staff about our concerns. We wanted a doctor, but were told one couldn't come until Tuesday.
One staff member said he was probably really tired because he had had lots of visitors the previous day.
Before we left we had a slow difficult walk with him to the dining room for lunch. He demanded my mother stay for lunch, she said she couldn't that day but he was insisting. A member of staff took over and we made our escape.
We never spoke to him again. At 7 the next morning he collapsed and died while being got up and ready for the day. The girls with him were really shocked.
Nothing we do will bring him back, but how I wish we had realised or been told he hadn't got long. We wouldn't have left his side.
my mother feels terrible guilt. I feel terrible guilt I didn't insist that the doctor was called out.
He has suffered from heart problems for some time but we didn't realise he was about to leave us.
Its probably all for the best, but still....
Goodbye Dad.
Rest in peace.
Hello All.
My Dad has just died. I am very sad, I have been posting on this forum (and reading posts)for around 3 years.
My dad went into a care home a few weeks ago as Mum felt she couldn't cope anymore.
After a couple of weeks he started to stay in his bed most of the day. He just wanted to sleep all the time. His limbs began to swell,his hands and feet were swollen most of the time. Then his abdomen and face got swollen.
The doctor was called on a few occasions. The dose was increased on his water tablets.
Nothing made much difference.
When visitors came Dad would just lie on the bed and talk to them with his eyes shut.
His confusion increased.
Christmas was terrible. The home puts on a lovely Christmas lunch for residents and relatives, Mum went and my brother but Dad didn't understand what was going on and just wanted to go and lie on his bed.
My mum and I visited him the last time on New Year's Eve. We managed to get him up and sitting in a chair. We helped him eat a satsuma and some grapes. He was breathless eating the satsuma, and a grape caused him to have a near choking fit.
We spoke to the staff about our concerns. We wanted a doctor, but were told one couldn't come until Tuesday.
One staff member said he was probably really tired because he had had lots of visitors the previous day.
Before we left we had a slow difficult walk with him to the dining room for lunch. He demanded my mother stay for lunch, she said she couldn't that day but he was insisting. A member of staff took over and we made our escape.
We never spoke to him again. At 7 the next morning he collapsed and died while being got up and ready for the day. The girls with him were really shocked.
Nothing we do will bring him back, but how I wish we had realised or been told he hadn't got long. We wouldn't have left his side.
my mother feels terrible guilt. I feel terrible guilt I didn't insist that the doctor was called out.
He has suffered from heart problems for some time but we didn't realise he was about to leave us.
Its probably all for the best, but still....
Goodbye Dad.
Rest in peace.
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