I'd appreciate some advice.
After a couple of years of doing our best to help get the right care for our mum, I think the time may have come to stand back.
Mum's 61 and was diagnosed with "something presenting like Alzheimer's" around a year ago. We'd realised that there was something wrong a couple of years before that after some fairly strange behaviour from my mum, but looking back I think the problems may have started around 5-6 years ago.
For the last couple of years we've done all we can to help, sorting her out with accommodation, sorting out her financial affairs so that she was no longer in debt, attending all meetings with doctors, social workers, home care, etc.
The biggest problem is that my mum has had psychiatric problems all her life, and has always been a very difficult person to be involved with. Friends never stuck around and family were the only people who would stick around. Although in a practical sense we may have appeared on the outside to be a "close" family it was more about minimising the risk of another furious outburst from mum, fear if you like. Over the years she's done horrendous things to her "nearest and dearest" but we've always been the ones to back down and apologise. She's been diagnosed as having various personality disorders and for a significant period of time she was as close to being an alcoholic as to make no difference.
She's currently in the local psychiatric hospital and has been there since February. She's on Aricept now and awaiting funding for a place at a care home. We arranged to get a enduring power of attourney set up a few months ago to enable us to act for mum when needed.
Now, whether it's out of frustration at being trapped at the hospital, or just mum's difficult nature, she's apparently cancelled the EPA and no longer wants us involved in her affairs. We've been doing our best for her, admittedly out of a sense of duty, rather than love (I think) for a long time. Once she was settled we may well have stood back a bit and left the majority of her care to someone else, but right now it feels like another kick in the teeth.
I've had yet another stroppy letter from mum, implying that we’re meddling, that she's quite capable of managing her own affairs (unfortunately the hospital staff seem content not to explain to mum her condition and the difficulties it causes her) and that she's cancelled the EPA.
I know I haven't visited mum as often as I should have, but as well as finding it difficult emotionally, it's also difficult practically - my work situation has been absolutely daft for the last few months and I'm often working very long hours. I have two children still at home, a partner who finally moved in in January and I barely get time for the three of them as it is... as for time for me......
We were in the process of trying to clear mum's flat having terminated the tenancy to save her money but now I'm inclined to let social services assist mum with all that. I've no longer got the drive to "do the best I can for mum" but I'm sure I'll regret it if I stand back and limit the contact and involvement.
Has anyone else here been involved with caring for someone that they really don't love?? Will I regret it more if I stand back than if I try and persuade mum to let us take care of her affairs??
Mandy
After a couple of years of doing our best to help get the right care for our mum, I think the time may have come to stand back.
Mum's 61 and was diagnosed with "something presenting like Alzheimer's" around a year ago. We'd realised that there was something wrong a couple of years before that after some fairly strange behaviour from my mum, but looking back I think the problems may have started around 5-6 years ago.
For the last couple of years we've done all we can to help, sorting her out with accommodation, sorting out her financial affairs so that she was no longer in debt, attending all meetings with doctors, social workers, home care, etc.
The biggest problem is that my mum has had psychiatric problems all her life, and has always been a very difficult person to be involved with. Friends never stuck around and family were the only people who would stick around. Although in a practical sense we may have appeared on the outside to be a "close" family it was more about minimising the risk of another furious outburst from mum, fear if you like. Over the years she's done horrendous things to her "nearest and dearest" but we've always been the ones to back down and apologise. She's been diagnosed as having various personality disorders and for a significant period of time she was as close to being an alcoholic as to make no difference.
She's currently in the local psychiatric hospital and has been there since February. She's on Aricept now and awaiting funding for a place at a care home. We arranged to get a enduring power of attourney set up a few months ago to enable us to act for mum when needed.
Now, whether it's out of frustration at being trapped at the hospital, or just mum's difficult nature, she's apparently cancelled the EPA and no longer wants us involved in her affairs. We've been doing our best for her, admittedly out of a sense of duty, rather than love (I think) for a long time. Once she was settled we may well have stood back a bit and left the majority of her care to someone else, but right now it feels like another kick in the teeth.
I've had yet another stroppy letter from mum, implying that we’re meddling, that she's quite capable of managing her own affairs (unfortunately the hospital staff seem content not to explain to mum her condition and the difficulties it causes her) and that she's cancelled the EPA.
I know I haven't visited mum as often as I should have, but as well as finding it difficult emotionally, it's also difficult practically - my work situation has been absolutely daft for the last few months and I'm often working very long hours. I have two children still at home, a partner who finally moved in in January and I barely get time for the three of them as it is... as for time for me......
We were in the process of trying to clear mum's flat having terminated the tenancy to save her money but now I'm inclined to let social services assist mum with all that. I've no longer got the drive to "do the best I can for mum" but I'm sure I'll regret it if I stand back and limit the contact and involvement.
Has anyone else here been involved with caring for someone that they really don't love?? Will I regret it more if I stand back than if I try and persuade mum to let us take care of her affairs??
Mandy