Sorry for posting recently, I do read a lot of posts in the background so to speak. We have contacted social services for another assessment of mam as she has been confused a lot this week maybe brought on by a hospital scan etc but she keeps seeing people that aren't there again. I am so upset and can't stop crying when I get back home. I feel as if I am grieving really like when my dad died but she is still alive. I haven't mentioned a home as it will really set her off, I was waiting for social services who mam knows to come and see us. I have the same horrid feelings of when I had to have a pet PTS and the guilt is awful. Mam was very calm today for some reason she is with me more than when the carers are there I guess that's a plus. The care home scenario and paying seems such a minefield.