Hi I just want to scream! I am my mum's full time carer. She is still in the process of getting a diagnosis, but her GP is fairly certain mum has vascular dementia. Mum likes to have things all her own way. This is nothing new, but now there is no way to reason with her. If I leave her alone for more than an hour, eg to have lunch with a friend, she will sulk because she has been left. I try to keep my friendships going. They are a lifeline into a non dementia world, if only for a short time every few weeks. Today I went to see a friend. I checked mum was ok. I checked she'd had her medication told her where I was going and when I would be back. Whilst I was out mum decided to cancel the memory clinic appointment she has for September, but she didn't tell me until tonight. She tells me she will not see anyone about her memory, there is no problem with her memory. Its me making her out to have a problem. I wish it were that simple. Mum had a GP appointment yesterday and he tried to explain about how important it was that she was properly diagnosed. It didn't register, she just laughed at him. Today she cannot remember that she saw him and so of course cannot remember what he said. On top of her memory being poor mum is becoming increasingly verbally aggressive over even small things and she has started to imagine things have happened which I know to be untrue like a stay in hospital last week. There is some problem, but mum is so far in denial that she has me pulling my hair out. As she has no problem in her eyes mum sees no reason for carers or day care so its down to me to ensure she is ok and entertained. Cancelling the appointment just feels like revenge on me for going out. It sounds petty of me and I know it is, but she looked so smug, I swear she knew exactly what she was doing. Sorry to moan, but honestly sometimes I could just scream, except I cannot scream at her because she's not well. I do not have the patience of a saint and maybe its the heat, but she's led me a merry dance all week!