My husband has shown signs of what I now realise is dementia for some time - I stopped him driving, he had several falls, he stopped using his computer, his concentration was very poor, agitated at night. But we managed to live with it, becoming isolated from our friends and saying we were fine together. Then he went into hospital because he had a heart attack. When he was in the ICU, he was totally different and much, much worse with hallucinations, agitation. His heart was then fine and they sent him home. We did have nurses coming in and, one day, because he thought a 25 year old nurse (I'm 64) was flirting with me, he became out of control. He bit me, hit me, bit the nurse, bashed the nurse all the while shouting and screaming, calling for the police. The nurse called an ambulance and he's been in hospital for almost a month while they try to get his meds "stabilised". He's still occasionally aggressive to the nurses - once with his granddaughter, he often lives in a world of his own, believing he's on a cruise. Yesterday he thought I was my mother and told me it was time I went home. He calls the other patients by names that aren't their own, he makes speeches that don't make sense but he shouts them to the ward anyway. He shouts for people who aren't there, sees things that aren't there. He has to be restrained as he can't walk for some reason (although he's having physio). Problem is, I'm scared. I once had a violent relationship which I had to run from. My husband's son (i.e. my stepson) wants his father at home. I don't honestly think I can cope. Am I awful? (I feel it). Feel free to tell me I am.