Hi lizzie
Had a really distressing visit today. Physically I think she's OK, though she is wriggling round (maybe pain she couldn't say) trying to get out of bed, swearing, cursing, pulled her canula out, wouldn't let the nurse take her BP. I also don't think she's eaten today. Her MH is awful, shouting out for people we don't know, hallucinating dreadfully sating really awful hurtful things to us, we couldn't really talk or ask her anything she just kept telling us to shut up. One thing I was really upset at was she said she wished she was dead, and what kind of daughter was I, she kicked and lashed out at me twice. Both my aunt and I cried when we left. They couldn't give her anything as they couldn't even get near so staff chose to leave her to calm down (it's also easier I guess to walk away).
My aunt described the visit as purgatory, and it was to see her like that.
All this and I go on holiday tomorrow, I wanted to see her relaxed at least but I am also angry that because of this incident she's never going to recover and get the right treatment which she should be having right now.
It's awful, just awful, I hope you find your Mum better than mine TerryN x