Do you see an event that will change this situation?.One of the problems I feel caused by Covid, is I visit my mother the same, I regard her as being in my " bubble", but because of the restrictions,feel I should not take her for a drive, or bring her to my house, because of the latest restrictions. So I feel my care is just not as good as it was pre Covid.
As soon as it is lifted, I will be driving her all over, it stimulates her (in a good way,lol)so much...
I ask as the relationship between my elder sister and myself is so broken.
I feel guilt, but also have so much anger.
I tell myself I don't care, I don't love her any more, because of her actions,but then the guilt that I have become such a horrible person, to think that of a fellow human being, makes me feel so miserable, and sad, and then there is the pretence to my mother that nothing has happened. Although she is aware, I try to never say anything.