i have this feeling of feeling down and tearful not unusual these days. put some music on to lift the mood but obviously put on the wrong one as it our song my husbands and mine sharnia twain you are still the one.it was our wedding anniversary on wednesday 31 yrs and there were no cards as he extremely vulnerable he couldnt get one. and im losing little bits of him every day. i dont want to even think of next years anniversary. it would make me cry.i usually discipline myself to look to the day but its hard not to think of the future and what will happen but i cant know that so a bit self-defeating.just having one of those days and i feel supported on here to be able to say it